wake in a sweat again another day's been laid to waste in my disgrace stuck in my head again feels like i'll never leave this place there's no escape i'm my own worst enemy
i've given up i'm sick of living is there nothing you can say take this all away i'm suffocating tell me what the fuck is wrong with me
i don't know what to take thought i was focused but i'm scared i'm not prepared i hyperventilate looking for help somehow somewhere and you don't care put me out of my misery
i dreamed i was missing you were so scared but no one would listen cause no one else cared after my dreaming i woke with this fear what am i leaving when i'm done here so if you're asking me i want you to know
when my time comes forget the wrong that i've done help me leave behind some reasons to be missed don't resent me and when you're feeling empty keep me in your memory leave out all the rest leave out all the rest
don't be afraid i've taken my beating i've shared what i made i'm strong on the surface not all the way through i've never been perfect but neither have you so if you're asking me i want you to know
forgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well pretending / someone else can come and save me from myself i can't be who you are
here we go for the hundredth time hand grenade pins in every line throw 'em up and let something shine going out of my fuckin mind filthy mouth / no excuse find a new place to hang this noose string me up from atop these roofs knot it tight so i won't get loose truth is / you can stop and stare bled myself out and no one cares dug the trench out / laid down there with a shovel up out of reach somewhere yeah / someone pour it in make it a dirt dance floor again say your prayers and stomp it out when they bring that chorus in i bleed it out digging deeper just to throw it away just to throw it away i bleed it out
i bleed it out / go / stop the show choppy words and a sloppy flow shotgun opera / lock and load cock it back and then watch it go mama help me / i've been cursed death is rolling in every verse candy paint on his brand new hearse can't contain him / he knows he works fuck this hurts / i won't lie / doesn't matter how hard i try half the words don't mean a thing and i know i won't be satisfied so why try ignoring him make it a dirt dance floor again say your prayers and stomp it out when they bring that chorus in
i open up these scars i'll make you face this i pull myself apart i'll make you face this i open up these scars i'll make you face this now
i close both locks below the window i close both blinds and turn away sometimes solutions aren't so simple sometimes goodbye's the only way
and the sun will set for you the sun will set for you and the shadow of the day will embrace the world in grey and the sun will set for you
in cards and flowers on your window your friends all plead for you to stay sometimes beginnings aren't so simple sometimes goodbye's the only way
and the shadow after day will embrace the world in grey and the sun will set for you
in this farewell there's no blood there's no alibi cause i've drawn regret from the truth of a thousand lies
so let mercy come and wash away
what i've done i'll face myself to cross out what i've become erase myself and let go of what i've done
put to rest what you thought of me while i've cleaned this slate with the hands of uncertainty
for what i've done i start again and whatever pain may come today this ends i'm forgiving what i've done
turn my mic up louder i got to say something lightweights step it aside when we come in feel it in your chest / the syllables get pumping people on the street they panic and start running words on loose leaf sheet complete coming i jump in my mind and summon the rhyme i'm dumping healing the blind i promise to let the sun in sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping fuck that / i wanna see some fists pumping risk something / take back what's yours say something that you know they might attack you for cause i'm sick of being treated like i have before like it's stupid standing for what i'm standing for like this war's really just a different brand of war like it doesn't cater to rich and abandon poor like they understand you in the back of the jet / when you can't put gas in your tank / and these fuckers are laughing their way to the bank / cashing the check asking you to have compassion / have respect for a leader so nervous in an obvious way stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day in their living room laughing like what did he say
in my living room watching / i am not laughing / cause when it gets tense i know what might happen the world is cold / the bold men make action have to react or get blown into fractions ten years old / it's something to see / another kid my age drug under a jeep taken and bound / and found later under a tree i wonder if he had thought the next one could be me do you see / the soldiers / they're out today they brush the dust from bulletproof vests away it's ironic / at times like this you pray but a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday there's bombs on the busses / bikes / roads inside your market / your shops / your clothes / my dad he's got a lot of fear i know but enough pride inside not to let that show my brother had a book he would hold with pride a little red cover with a broken spine on the back / he hand wrote a quote inside: 'when the rich wage war it's the poor who die' and meanwhile / the leader just talks away stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay the rest of the world watching at the end of the day both scared and angry like what did he say with hands held high into a sky so blue as the ocean opens up to swallow you
are you lost / in your lies do you tell yourself i don't realize your campaign's a disguise replaced freedom with fear / you trade money for lives i'm aware of what you've done
no / no more sorrow i've paid for your mistakes your / time is borrowed your time has come to be replaced
i see pain / i see need i see liars and thieves abuse power with greed i had hope / i believed but i'm beginning to think that i've been deceived you will pay for what you've done
thieves and hypocrites
no / no more sorrow i've paid for your mistakes your / time is borrowed your time has come to be replaced your time has come to be erased
my insides all turned to ash / so slow and blew away as i collapsed / so cold a black wind took them away / from sight and held the darkness over day / that night
and the clouds above move closer looking so dissatisfied but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
i used to be my own protection / but not now cause my path had lost direction / somehow a black wind took you away / from sight and held the darkness over day / that night
and the clouds above move closer looking so dissatisfied and the ground below grew colder as they put you down inside but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
so now you're gone and i was wrong i never knew what it was like to be alone on a valentine's day
let me apologize to begin with let me apologize for what i'm about to say but trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed and somehow i got caught up in between
let me apologize to begin with let me apologize for what i'm about to say but trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed and somehow i got caught up in between
between my pride and my promise between my lies and how the truth gets in the way the things i want to say to you get lost before they come the only thing that's worse than one is none
let me apologize to begin with let me apologize for what i'm about to say but trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed and somehow i got caught up in between
and i cannot explain to you in anything i say or do or plan fear is not afraid of you but guilt's a language you can understand i cannot explain to you in anything i say or do but hope the actions speak the words they can
for my pride and my promise for my lies and how the truth gets in the way the things i want to say to you get lost before they come the only thing that's worse than one is none
telling me to go but hands beg me to stay your lips say that you love your eyes say that you hate
there's truth in your lies doubt in your faith what you build you lay to waste there's truth in your lies doubt in your faith all i've got's what you didn't take
so i / i wont be the one be the one to leave this in pieces and you / you will be alone alone with all your secrets your regrets don't lie
you promise me the sky then toss me like a stone you wrap me in your arms and chill me to the bone
there's truth in your lies and doubt in your faith what you build you lay to waste there's truth in your lies and doubt in your faith all i've got's what you didn't take
so i / i wont be the one be the one to leave this in pieces and you / you will be alone alone with all your secrets your regrets don't lie
water grey through the windows up the stairs chilling rain like an ocean everywhere
don't want to reach for me do you i mean nothing to you the little things give you away and now there will be no mistaking the levees are breaking
all you've ever wanted was someone to truly look up to you and six feet / underwater i do
hope decays generations disappear washed away as a nation simply stares
all you've ever wanted was someone to truly look up to you and six feet / underwater i do all you've ever wanted was someone to truly look up to you and six feet / underground now i do
Sometimes I Need to remember just to breathe Sometimes I Need you to stay away from me Sometimes I’m In disbelief I didn’t know Somehow I Need you to go
Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into [Just give me myself back and] Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you [Just give me myself back and] Don’t stay
Sometimes I Feel like I trusted you too well Sometimes I Just feel like screaming at myself Sometimes I’m In disbelief I didn’t know Somehow I Need to be alone
Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into [Just give me myself back and] Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you [Just give me myself back and] Don’t stay
I don’t need you anymore I don’t want to be ignored I don’t need one more day Of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore I don’t want to be ignored I don’t need one more day Of you wasting me away With no apologies
Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into [Just give me myself back and] Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you [Just give me myself back and] Don’t stay Don’t stay Don’t stay
When this began I had nothing to say And I’d get lost in the nothingness inside of me I was confused And I let it all out to find /that I’m Not the only person with these things in mind Inside of me But all the vacancy the words revealed Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel Nothing to lose Just stuck/hollow and alone And the fault is my own And the fault is my own
I want to heal I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long [Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone] I want to heal I want to feel Like I’m close to something real I want to find something i’ve wanted all along Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothing to say I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face I was confused Looking everywhere/only to find that it’s Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind So what am I What do I have but negativity ’Cause I can’t justify the Way everyone is looking at me Nothing to lose Nothing to gain/hollow and alone And the fault is my own The fault is my own
I want to heal I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long [Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone] I want to heal I want to feel Like I’m close to something real I want to find something i’ve wanted all along Somewhere I belong
I will never know Myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel Anything else until my wounds are healed I will never be Anything ’til I break away from me And I will break away I’ll find myself today
I want to heal I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long [Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone] I want to heal I want to feel Like I’m close to something real I want to find something i’ve wanted all along Somewhere I belong
I want to heal I want to feel like I’m Somewhere i belong I want to heal I want to feel like I’m Somewhere i belong Somewhere i belong
When I pretend Everything is what I want it to be I look exactly like what you had always Wanted to see When I pretend I can forget about the criminal I am Stealing second after second just ’cause I know I can/But I can’t pretend this is the way It will stay/I’m just Trying to bend the truth I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be So I’m
Lying my way from you
[No/no turning back now] I wanna be pushed aside So let me go [No/no turning back now] Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone [No turning back now] Anywhere on my own ’Cause I can see [No/no turning back now] The very worst part of you Is me
I remember what they taught to me Remember condescending talk Of who I ought to be Remember listening to all of that And this again So I pretended up a person who was fitting in And now you think this person Really is me and I’m [Trying to bend the truth] But the more I push The more I’m pulling away ’Cause I’m
Lying my way from you
[No/no turning back now] I wanna be pushed aside So let me go [No/no turning back now] Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone [No turning back now] Anywhere on my own ’Cause I can see [No/no turning back now] The very worst part of you The very worst part of you Is me
This isn’t what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this
This isn’t what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this
This isn’t what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this
This isn’t what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this
[No/no turning back now] I wanna be pushed aside So let me go [No/no turning back now] Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone [No turning back now] Anywhere on my own ’Cause I can see [No/no turning back now] The very worst part of you The very worst part of you Is me
There are just too many Times that people Have tried to look inside of me Wondering what I think of you And I protect you out of courtesy Too many times that I’ve Held on when I needed to push away Afraid to say what was on my mind Afraid to say what I need to say Too many Things that you’ve said about me When I’m not around You think having the upper hand Means you’ve got to keep putting me down But I’ve had too many stand-offs with you It’s about as much as I can stand So I’m waiting until the upper hand Is mine
One minute you’re on top The next you’re not Watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you’re on top The next you’re not Missed your shot Making your heart stop You think you won
And then it’s all gone
So many people like me Put so much trust in all your lies So concerned with what you think To just say what we feel inside So many people like me Walk on eggshells all day long All I know is that all I want Is to feel like I’m not stepped on There are so many things you say That make me feel like you’ve crossed the line What goes up will surely fall And I’m counting down the time ’Cause I’ve had so many stand-offs with you It’s about as much as I can stand So I’m waiting until the upper hand Is mine
One minute you’re on top The next you’re not Watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you’re on top The next you’re not Missed your shot Making your heart stop You think you won
And then it’s all gone And then it’s all gone And then it’s all gone And then it’s all gone Now it’s all gone
I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say You knew your lies would divide us But you lied anyway And all the lies have got you floating Up above us all But what goes up has got to fall
One minute you’re on top The next you’re not Watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you’re on top The next you’re not Missed your shot Making your heart stop You think you won
And then it’s all gone And then it’s all gone And then it’s all gone And then it’s all gone Now it’s all gone
It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken From deep inside of me A secret I’ve kept locked away No one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show They never go away Like moving pictures in my head For years and years they’ve played
If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would I would take all my shame to the grave
It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember The darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have Sometimes I think of letting go And never looking back And never moving forward so There would never be a past
If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would I would take all my shame to the grave
Just washing it aside All of the helplessness inside Pretending I don’t feel misplaced Is so much simpler than change
It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone
It’s easier to run If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made It’s easier to go If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would I would take all my shame to the grave
I am A little bit of loneliness A little bit of disregard A handful of complaints But I can’t help the fact That everyone can see these scars I am What I want you to want What I want you to feel But it’s like No matter what I do I can’t convince you To just believe this is real So I let go Watching you Turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I’m not But I’ll be here ’Cause you’re all that I got
I can’t feel The way I did before Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored Time won’t heal This damage anymore Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored
I am A little bit insecure A little unconfident ’Cause you don’t understand I do what I can But sometimes I don’t make sense I am What you never want to say But I’ve never had a doubt It’s like no matter what I do I can’t convince you For once just to hear me out So I let go Watching you Turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I’m not But I’ll be here ’Cause you’re all that I got
I can’t feel The way I did before Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored Time won’t heal This damage anymore Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored
No Hear me out now You’re gonna listen to me Like it or not Right now Hear me out now You’re gonna listen to me Like it or not Right now
I can’t feel The way I did before Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored I can’t feel The way I did before Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored Time won’t heal This damage anymore Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored
I can’t feel Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored Time won’t heal Don’t turn your back on me I won’t be ignored
Nothing ever stops all these thoughts And the pain attached to them Sometimes I wonder why this is happening It’s like nothing I can do Will distract me when I think of how I shot myself in the back again ’Cause from the infinite words I could say/I Put all the pain you gave to me on Display/But didn’t Realize/Instead of setting it free/I Took what I hated and made it a part of me
[It never goes away] never goes away
And now You’ve become a part of me You’ll always be right here You’ve become a part of me You’ll always be my fear I can’t separate myself from What I’ve done Giving up a part of me I’ve let myself become you
Hearing your name/the memories Come back again I remember when it started happening I’d see you in every thought I had and then The thoughts slowly found words Attached to them And I knew as they escaped away I was Committing myself to them/and every day I Regret saying those things/’cause now I see/that I Took what I hated and made it a part of me
[It never goes away] never goes away
And now You’ve become a part of me You’ll always be right here You’ve become a part of me You’ll always be my fear I can’t separate myself from What I’ve done Giving up a part of me I’ve let myself become you
[It never goes away] Never goes away, never goes away Never goes away
Get away from Me Gimme my space back/you gotta just Go Everything comes down to memories of You I’ve kept it in but now I’m letting you Know I’ve let you go So get away from me Gimme my space back/you gotta just Go Everything comes down to memories of You I’ve kept it in but now I’m letting you Know I’ve let you go, go.. And now You’ve become a part of me You’ll always be right here You’ve become a part of me You’ll always be my fear I can’t separate myself from What I’ve done Giving up a part of me I’ve let myself become you
I’ve let myself become you I’ve let myself become lost inside these Thoughts of you Giving up a part of me I’ve let myself become you
Memories consume Like opening the wound I’m picking me apart again You all assume I’m safe here in my room [Unless I try to start again]
I don’t want to be the one The battles always choose ’Cause inside I realize That I’m the one confused
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don’t know why I instigate And say what I don’t mean I don’t know how I got this way I know it’s not alright So I’m Breaking the habit I’m breaking the habit Tonight
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again
I don’t want to be the one The battles always choose ’Cause inside I realize That I’m the one confused
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don’t know why I instigate And say what I don’t mean I don’t know how I got this way I’ll never be alright So I’m Breaking the habit I’m breaking the habit Tonight
I’ll paint it on the walls ’Cause I’m the one at fault I’ll never fight again And this is how it ends
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for Or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity To show you what I mean I don’t know how I got this way I’ll never be alright So I’m Breaking the habit I’m breaking the habit I’m breaking the habit Tonight
I don’t know who to trust No surprise Everyone feels so far away from me Heavy thoughts sift through dust And the lies
Trying not to break But I’m so tired of this deceit Every time I try to make myself Get back up on my feet All I ever think about is this All the tiring time between And how Trying to put my trust in you Just takes so much out of me
I take everything from the inside And throw it all away ’Cause I swear/for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
Tension is building inside Steadily Everyone feels so far away from me Heavy thoughts forcing their way Out of me
Trying not to break But I’m so tired of this deceit Every time I try to make myself Get back up on my feet All I ever think about is this All the tiring time between And how Trying to put my trust in you Just takes so much out of me
I take everything from the inside And throw it all away ’Cause I swear/for the last time I won’t trust myself with you I won’t waste myself on you, you, you Waste myself on you, you, you
I’ll take everything from the inside And throw it all away ’Cause I swear/for the last time I won’t trust myself with you Everything from the inside And just throw it all away ’Cause I swear/for the last time I won’t trust myself with you, you, you
Coming at ya..
Yo peep the style and the kids checking for it The number one question is How could you ignore it We drop right back in the cut Over basement tracks With raps that got you backing this up like [Rewind That] We’re just rolling with the rhythm Rise from the ashes of stylistic division With these non-stop lyrics of life living Not to be forgotten But still unforgiven But in the meantime there are those who wanna Talk this and that/so I suppose that It gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt [It goes]
Try to give you warning But everyone ignores me [Told you everything loud and clear] But nobody’s listening Call to you so clearly But you don’t want to hear me [Told you everything loud and clear] But nobody’s listening
I got a Heart full of pain/head full of stress Handful of anger/held in my chest And everything left is a waste of time I hate my rhymes [But hate everyone else’s more] I’m riding on the back of this pressure Guessing that it’s better I can’t keep myself together Because of all this stress Gave me something to write on The pain gave me something I could set my sights on You never forget the blood sweat and tears The uphill struggle over years The fear and trash talking And the people it was to And the people that started it Just like you
Try to give you warning But everyone ignores me [Told you everything loud and clear] But nobody’s listening Call to you so clearly But you don’t want to hear me [Told you everything loud and clear] But nobody’s listening
I got a Heart full of pain/head full of stress Handful of anger/held in my chest Uphill struggle/blood, sweat and tears Nothing to gain/everything to fear
Heart full of pain/head full of stress Handful of anger/held in my chest Uphill struggle/blood, sweat and tears Nothing to gain/everything to fear Heart full of pain..
Try to give you warning But everyone ignores me [Told you everything loud and clear] But nobody’s listening Call to you so clearly But you don’t want to hear me [Told you everything loud and clear] But nobody’s listening
I’ve got Heart full of pain Head full of stress Nobody’s listening Handful of anger Held in my chest Nobody’s listening Uphill struggle Blood, sweat and tears Nobody’s listening Nothing to gain Everything to fear Nobody’s listening
[Coming at you]
I’m tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless Lost under the surface I don’t know what you’re expecting of me Put under the pressure Of walking in your shoes
[Caught in the undertow Just caught in the undertow] Every step that I take is Another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow Just caught in the undertow]
I’ve Become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I’m becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me Holding too tightly Afraid to lose control ’Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you
[Caught in the undertow Just caught in the undertow] Every step that I take is Another mistake to you [Caught in the undertow Just caught in the undertow] And every second I waste Is more then I can take
I’ve Become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I’m becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you
And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me With someone disappointed in you
I’ve Become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I’m becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you
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