Given Up

wake in a sweat again
another day's been laid to waste
in my disgrace
stuck in my head again
feels like i'll never leave this place
there's no escape
i'm my own worst enemy

i've given up
i'm sick of living
is there nothing you can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

i don't know what to take
thought i was focused but i'm scared
i'm not prepared
i hyperventilate
looking for help somehow somewhere
and you don't care
put me out of my misery

Leave Out All The Rest

i dreamed i was missing
you were so scared
but no one would listen
cause no one else cared
after my dreaming
i woke with this fear
what am i leaving
when i'm done here
so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes
forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some
reasons to be missed
don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

don't be afraid
i've taken my beating
i've shared what i made
i'm strong on the surface
not all the way through
i've never been perfect
but neither have you
so if you're asking me i want you to know

forgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
pretending / someone else can come and save me from myself
i can't be who you are

Bleed It Out

here we go for the hundredth time
hand grenade pins in every line
throw 'em up and let something shine
going out of my fuckin mind
filthy mouth / no excuse
find a new place to hang this noose
string me up from atop these roofs
knot it tight so i won't get loose
truth is / you can stop and stare
bled myself out and no one cares
dug the trench out / laid down there
with a shovel up out of reach somewhere
yeah / someone pour it in
make it a dirt dance floor again
say your prayers and stomp it out
when they bring that chorus in
i bleed it out
digging deeper just to throw it away
just to throw it away
i bleed it out

i bleed it out / go / stop the show
choppy words and a sloppy flow
shotgun opera / lock and load
cock it back and then watch it go
mama help me / i've been cursed
death is rolling in every verse
candy paint on his brand new hearse
can't contain him / he knows he works
fuck this hurts / i won't lie / doesn't matter how
hard i try
half the words don't mean a thing and i know i
won't be satisfied
so why try ignoring him
make it a dirt dance floor again
say your prayers and stomp it out
when they bring that chorus in

i open up these scars
i'll make you face this i pull myself apart
i'll make you face this
i open up these scars
i'll make you face this now

Shadow of the Day

i close both locks below the window
i close both blinds and turn away
sometimes solutions aren't so simple
sometimes goodbye's the only way

and the sun will set for you
the sun will set for you
and the shadow of the day
will embrace the world in grey
and the sun will set for you

in cards and flowers on your window
your friends all plead for you to stay
sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
sometimes goodbye's the only way

and the shadow after day
will embrace the world in grey
and the sun will set for you

What I've Done

in this farewell
there's no blood
there's no alibi
cause i've drawn regret
from the truth
of a thousand lies

so let mercy come
and wash away

what i've done
i'll face myself
to cross out what i've become
erase myself
and let go of what i've done

put to rest
what you thought of me
while i've cleaned this slate
with the hands
of uncertainty

for what i've done
i start again
and whatever pain may come
today this ends
i'm forgiving what i've done

Hands Held High

turn my
mic up louder i got to say something
lightweights step it aside when we come in
feel it in your chest / the syllables get pumping
people on the street they panic and start running
words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
i jump in my mind and summon the rhyme i'm dumping
healing the blind i promise to let the sun in
sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and
jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
fuck that / i wanna see some fists pumping
risk something / take back what's yours
say something that you know they might attack you for
cause i'm sick of being treated like i have before
like it's stupid standing for what i'm standing for
like this war's really just a different brand of war
like it doesn't cater to rich and abandon poor
like they understand you in the back of the jet / when you
can't put gas in your tank / and these fuckers are
laughing their way to the bank / cashing the check
asking you to have compassion / have respect
for a leader so nervous in an obvious way
stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
in their living room laughing like
what did he say

in my living room watching / i am not laughing / cause
when it gets tense i know what might happen
the world is cold / the bold men make action
have to react or get blown into fractions
ten years old / it's something to see / another
kid my age drug under a jeep
taken and bound / and found later under a tree
i wonder if he had thought the next one could be me
do you see / the soldiers / they're out today they
brush the dust from bulletproof vests away
it's ironic / at times like this you pray
but a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday
there's bombs on the busses / bikes / roads
inside your market / your shops / your clothes / my dad
he's got a lot of fear i know
but enough pride inside not to let that show
my brother had a book he would hold with pride
a little red cover with a broken spine
on the back / he hand wrote a quote inside:
'when the rich wage war it's the poor who die'
and meanwhile / the leader just talks away
stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like
what did he say
with hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you

No More Sorrow

are you lost / in your lies
do you tell yourself i don't realize
your campaign's a disguise
replaced freedom with fear / you trade money for lives
i'm aware of what you've done

no / no more sorrow
i've paid for your mistakes
your / time is borrowed
your time has come to be replaced

i see pain / i see need
i see liars and thieves abuse power with greed
i had hope / i believed
but i'm beginning to think that i've been deceived
you will pay for what you've done

thieves and hypocrites

no / no more sorrow
i've paid for your mistakes
your / time is borrowed
your time has come to be replaced
your time has come to be erased

Valentine's Day

my insides all turned to ash / so slow
and blew away as i collapsed / so cold
a black wind took them away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

i used to be my own protection / but not now
cause my path had lost direction / somehow
a black wind took you away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
and the ground below grew colder
as they put you down inside
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

so now you're gone
and i was wrong
i never knew what it was like
to be alone
on a valentine's day

In Between

let me apologize to begin with
let me apologize for what i'm about to say
but trying to be genuine
was harder than it seemed
and somehow i got caught up in between

let me apologize to begin with
let me apologize for what i'm about to say
but trying to be someone else
was harder than it seemed
and somehow i got caught up in between

between my pride and my promise
between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
the things i want to say to you
get lost before they come
the only thing that's worse than one is none

let me apologize to begin with
let me apologize for what i'm about to say
but trying to regain your trust
was harder than it seemed
and somehow i got caught up in between

and i cannot explain to you
in anything i say or do or plan
fear is not afraid of you
but guilt's a language you can understand
i cannot explain to you
in anything i say or do
but hope the actions speak the words they can

for my pride and my promise
for my lies and how the truth gets in the way
the things i want to say to you
get lost before they come
the only thing that's worse than one is none

In Pieces

telling me to go
but hands beg me to stay
your lips say that you love
your eyes say that you hate

there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
what you build you lay to waste
there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
all i've got's what you didn't take

so i / i wont be the one
be the one to leave this
in pieces
and you / you will be alone
alone with all your secrets
your regrets
don't lie

you promise me the sky
then toss me like a stone
you wrap me in your arms
and chill me to the bone

there's truth in your lies
and doubt in your faith
what you build you lay to waste
there's truth in your lies
and doubt in your faith
all i've got's what you didn't take

so i / i wont be the one
be the one to leave this
in pieces
and you / you will be alone
alone with all your secrets
your regrets
don't lie

The Little Things Give You Away

Don't Stay

Sometimes I
Need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
Need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m
In disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I
Need you to go

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay

Sometimes I
Feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
Just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m
In disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I
Need to be alone

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay

I don’t need you anymore
I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day
Of you wasting me away

I don’t need you anymore
I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day
Of you wasting me away
With no apologies

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Don’t stay
Don’t stay

Somewhere I Belong

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I’d get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find /that I’m
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long
[Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I’m close to something real
I want to find something i’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/only to find that it’s
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long
[Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I’m close to something real
I want to find something i’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything ’til I break away from me
And I will break away
I’ll find myself today

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long
[Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I’m close to something real
I want to find something i’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I want to heal
I want to feel like I’m
Somewhere i belong
I want to heal
I want to feel like I’m
Somewhere i belong
Somewhere i belong

Lying Form You

When I pretend
Everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always
Wanted to see
When I pretend
I can forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just ’cause
I know I can/But
I can’t pretend this is the way
It will stay/I’m just
Trying to bend the truth
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be
So I’m

Lying my way from you

[No/no turning back now]
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
[No/no turning back now]
Let me take back my life
I’d rather be all alone
[No turning back now]
Anywhere on my own
’Cause I can see
[No/no turning back now]
The very worst part of you
Is me

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk
Of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that
And this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person
Really is me and I’m
[Trying to bend the truth]
But the more I push
The more I’m pulling away
’Cause I’m

Lying my way from you

[No/no turning back now]
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
[No/no turning back now]
Let me take back my life
I’d rather be all alone
[No turning back now]
Anywhere on my own
’Cause I can see
[No/no turning back now]
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

[No/no turning back now]
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
[No/no turning back now]
Let me take back my life
I’d rather be all alone
[No turning back now]
Anywhere on my own
’Cause I can see
[No/no turning back now]
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me

Hit The Floor

There are just too many
Times that people
Have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve
Held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say
Too many
Things that you’ve said about me
When I’m not around
You think having the upper hand
Means you’ve got to keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many stand-offs with you
It’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand
Is mine

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won

And then it’s all gone

So many people like me
Put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think
To just say what we feel inside
So many people like me
Walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want
Is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say
That make me feel like you’ve crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall
And I’m counting down the time
’Cause I’ve had so many stand-offs with you
It’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand
Is mine

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won

And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us
But you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating
Up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won

And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

Easier To Run

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they’ve played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I
would

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I
would

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It’s easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It’s easier to go
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Faint

I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
But I can’t help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it’s like
No matter what I do
I can’t convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here
’Cause you’re all that I got

I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
This damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

I am
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
’Cause you don’t understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don’t make sense
I am
What you never want to say
But I’ve never had a doubt
It’s like no matter what I do
I can’t convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here
’Cause you’re all that I got

I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
This damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

No
Hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now

I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
This damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

I can’t feel
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

Figure.09

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
And the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It’s like nothing I can do
Will distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
’Cause from the infinite words I could say/I
Put all the pain you gave to me on
Display/But didn’t
Realize/Instead of setting it free/I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[It never goes away] never goes away

And now
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from
What I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

Hearing your name/the memories
Come back again
I remember when it started happening
I’d see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words
Attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away I was
Committing myself to them/and every day I
Regret saying those things/’cause now
I see/that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[It never goes away] never goes away

And now
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from
What I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

[It never goes away]
Never goes away, never goes away
Never goes away

Get away from
Me
Gimme my space back/you gotta just
Go
Everything comes down to memories of
You
I’ve kept it in but now I’m letting you
Know
I’ve let you go
So get away from me
Gimme my space back/you gotta just
Go
Everything comes down to memories of
You
I’ve kept it in but now I’m letting you
Know
I’ve let you go, go..
And now
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from
What I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

I’ve let myself become you
I’ve let myself become lost inside these
Thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

Breaking The Habit

Memories consume Like opening the wound
I’m picking me apart again
You all assume
I’m safe here in my room
[Unless I try to start again]

I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
’Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I know it’s not alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
’Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

I’ll paint it on the walls
’Cause I’m the one at fault
I’ll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

From The Inside

I don’t know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies

Trying not to break
But I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me

Trying not to break
But I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you
I won’t waste myself on you, you, you
Waste myself on you, you, you

I’ll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you
Everything from the inside
And just throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you, you, you

Nobody's Listening

Coming at ya..

Yo peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is
How could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut
Over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
[Rewind That]
We’re just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten
But still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those who wanna
Talk this and that/so I suppose that
It gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt
[It goes]

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don’t want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening

I got a
Heart full of pain/head full of stress
Handful of anger/held in my chest
And everything left is a waste of time
I hate my rhymes
[But hate everyone else’s more]
I’m riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it’s better
I can’t keep myself together
Because of all this stress
Gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something
I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years
The fear and trash talking
And the people it was to
And the people that started it
Just like you

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don’t want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening

I got a
Heart full of pain/head full of stress
Handful of anger/held in my chest
Uphill struggle/blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain/everything to fear

Heart full of pain/head full of stress
Handful of anger/held in my chest
Uphill struggle/blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain/everything to fear
Heart full of pain..

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don’t want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening

I’ve got Heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Nobody’s listening
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
Nobody’s listening
Uphill struggle
Blood, sweat and tears
Nobody’s listening
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Nobody’s listening

[Coming at you]

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